Thursday, September 17, 2009

A kind soul but....

UPDATE: 17 September 2009
I am feeling very upset at the moment and am trying hard not to give up completely! People have been so wonderful here on Fluff that it brings me much joy and escape from my 'real' life. I wnat to keep you updated as things kick into high gear. My oncologist has given me only a matter of weeks to live, and I am having a hard time accepting this as I feel good physically. I thought that I would have to feel weak and be in pain. I have aches and the occasional headache but nothing that would suggest this. The doctor tell me that it will progress rather quickly and my health will deteriorate rapidly, but really how can he be sure. The range of emotions that I have been going through are more tiring than the disease at the moment. How can anyone really be prepared for their own mortality, I think I would have preferred for it to be not known, but in saying that I have the chance to say my goodbyes and do things I want to do. I have had a good life, I have seen the world and experienced life. I have wonderful friends and loving parents, and it is them that i worry about now, well in between my lapses into self pity. I dont know how this will go but I will try to update daily (if I can find time in between petting and gifting!)

UPDATE: 14 September 2009
My doctors have discovered that my cancer has spread to both my brain and bones. I am still going to undertake chemotherapy in the hope of extending my time. The doctors have given me a time frame to look at, but i have seen many people defy the odds and live well beyond this limit. I have had some very dark days, these last few, and I am sure that I will have more to come. However I will try to remain strong and I will remember that tears can help us at times. I would ask that anyone who reads this please keep me in your prayers.
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Thankyou everyone for all your kind word and thoughts (and prayers). I would like to share with you all a bit about me and my cancer battle. I was first diagnosed in 1998 with breast cancer. I had surgery to remove the lump and then underwent radiation therapy. I made a good recovery adn was cancer free up until early this year when my mamogram found a mass, on closer examination the oncologist discovered that the original had indeed returned and mestatisized. I have since had a double mastectomy and lymph node removal. And now I ma undertaking chemotherapy to extend my time. The doctors are not optimistic but I AM! I know I can beat this and if I cant Iknow that my family and friends whom I have already lost will be waiting for me wherever it is I am to go.
During my first treatment 10 years ago I met some wonderful women with extraordinary stories of courage, and they give me strength. Lila, our angel, was still only a child, 19, in 1999 when she lost her battle, but she held herself with such grace and was more interested in making sure everyone around her was okay. Samantha was my other bus buddy (we caught the cancer bus to treatment together) she was a single mother of 3 beautiful daughters all under the age of 5 and she was only 25. SHe managed her treatment and her family with very little support and remained optimistic during the whole ordeal. Samantha has remained cancer free and went on to have another child a son and is now happily married. She is here on facebook and my greatest support! My other friend Aileen passed away recently, she was Lila's mum, and she became somewhat like my mum to during my treatment. She saw us all through our cancer only to be struck down herself last year, she fought to the end adn most importantly she never stopped living, her last holiday she went away to Egypt determined to keep a promise to her daughter. These 3 women are my role models for strngth and courage and they are the reason why I will never give up fighting and being optimistic.
I will beat it!

I hope she will continue to be optimistic and get well soon.... Let's pray for her... God bless ...

It all started with this......

Shelley LeBreton (Saint John, NB) wroteon September 13, 2009 at 2:15am
I am offering 500 LG to someone to help them with their fund or debt, if you or someone you know is saving for a special item please post here and tell me about it... I will have someone help me pick someone to give the 500 LG to..

THANK YOU, I look forward to reading your stories.... I have to work tonight, but will check this topic when I get home.

Please don't forget to leave me a link to get to you if you are chosen

Then i asked Stephanie to help to nominate me, lolz .... this is what she wrote :

Stephanie Lum wroteon September 13, 2009 at 9:47pm
I would like to nominate Phoenix Lim. She has been saving hard for the Phoenix fund right before the mm phoenix went into LE Shop. I still remembered she got so excited when i texted her during work time that there's going to be a MM Phoenix. LOL

She can't get online during work time. So one day before the MM went into LE shop, she send me LG for my safe keeping. In the next morning, she texted me to check whether anyone is selling the MM. But then LE prices are crazy.

She wanted the MM Phoenix so badly . Just to let you know one of her chinese name means Phoenix in English and she also give herself a English name as Phoenix too. I never have seen someone as crazy as her . Hehe !

So she has been saving ever since to bring back the MM Phoenix. I am not sure how much she has save now. Perhaps u want to talk to her. Her link is http://flyingdance.fluff-friends.com

And after that Melissa Laura Iwankewycz agreed to do a food debt for the MM Phoenix for me, hurray !!!

and started a new thread the DB

MM Phoenix debt between Melissa Laura Iwankewycz and me


Thank you very much to Melissa for willing to do food debt with me for MM Phoenix.

MM Phoenix : 1248 LG

Food rate : 55/lg or 50lg for grapes.

1248 LG - 879 LG = 369 LG ( debt ) or 20295 food

Phoenix's link : http://flyingdance.fluff-friends.com

~~~~ Any donation is very much appreciated, thanks in advance ~~~
Post #2
Melissa Laura Iwankewycz (University of Guelph) wroteon September 14, 2009 at 10:36pm
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim and you've fulfilled their wish!
MegaMini Phoenix
Quantity: 1
Post #3
You wroteon September 15, 2009 at 7:58pm
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 5

369 LG - 5 LG = 364 LG ( debt as at 15/9/09 )
Post #4
You wrote23 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 05

364 LG - 5 LG = 359 LG ( debt as at 16/9/09 )
Post #5
Shemi Jicha (Greenville, SC) wrote20 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim and you've fulfilled their wish!
Gold Currency
Amount: 350
Post #6
Susan Virtanen (Finland) wrote19 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim!

Gold Currency
Amount: 9

No more debt! Yippee!
Post #7
You wrote37 minutes ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 359

359 LG - 359 LG = 0 ( debt settled as at 17/9/09 )

I would like to take this chance to thank Shemi Jicha and Susan Virtanen for helping me settle my MM Phoenix debt.
It was a huge surprise when i logged in to fluff when i came back from work ..... really appreciate their help * sob * *hugs*
Post #8
Susan Virtanen (Finland) wrote31 minutes ago
You are welcome Phoenix! I am glad I was able to make a small contribution :-)
Post #9
You wrote26 minutes ago
Your contribution means a lot to me ^6^

Thanks again
Post #10
Melissa Laura Iwankewycz (University of Guelph) wrote24 minutes ago
Congrats Pheonix!!!!!!!!!!

:)
Post #11
You wrote8 minutes ago
Thanks again , Melissa ... the biggest credit goes to u ^6^


Saturday, April 11, 2009

悶悶不樂

最近總是悶悶不樂的,慘了。。。。 最近的確發生了好多東西又讓我攢牛角尖了。。。心里總覺得好委屈所以有這種感覺吧。

可能是這該死的氣候吧,搞到大家都火氣很大。





Thursday, March 26, 2009

我像輕舞飛揚嗎?

輕舞飛揚的來源 :

http://www.xjx.cc/thefirst/


讀了以上的故事會覺得我很像輕舞飛揚嗎 ? 曾經有位網絡朋友說我很像輕舞飛揚,就 send 了以上故事好讓我慢慢讀。。。讀過后,淚也留下來了,因為有些感觸,自己也覺的有點像輕舞飛揚。。。唯獨跟她不相同的是沒她那么勇敢愛的轟轟烈烈。

我意外康復后也在 Facebook 換了我的電腦寵物,本來是養了只狗,就把它換成了一只美麗漂亮的蝴蝶。我給它取名為 ‘ 輕舞飛揚 ’英文稱作 ‘ Flying Dance ’,然后我所養的電腦寵物比如在 ‘ Pet Pet 愛作戰 ’,‘Pet Society’ , ‘ Farm Town’ 也取名為 ‘ 輕舞飛揚’。

最近在玩 ‘ Farm Town’ 時,我的一位 Facebook 朋友, Yvonne Oerlemans ( Australia ) 問我 Flying Dance 是什么意識。于是我告訴她,Flying Dance 是指一只蝴蝶飛時后的優美動作,讓人看起來好像是在跳舞。

我也很想像輕舞飛揚那樣,雖然很不幸患上了紅斑狼瘡癥但是永遠的活在每個曾經接觸過的人的心中。我很幸運我現在病情是屬于緩解 ( remission ) 但還是很擔心會有一天復發 ( relapse ) 所以我現在把很多事情也看開了,盡量活得開心,希望天天美麗心情。 ^^

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

網絡綜合癥

天呀!我患了網絡綜合癥了嗎?最近看見一遍雜志里的文章。。。


【病發原因】整天上網,通宵達目地玩網上游戲,飯也忘了吃,而閃爍的屏幕是引起疲勞和產生視覺不良癥狀的重要原因。


【癥狀】 炫目,眼晴紅腫,神經衰弱和身體酸痛。


【如何應對】 操作電腦時,沒使用1小時電腦一定要休息10分鐘,每次上網時間最好不要超過5小時。


嘻。。看來我還沒至于那么嚴重啦。。。我是有吃飯,洗澡和幫忙做些家務的。。。有位好朋友也最近 send 給我一個 link 題目是 :Spend less time on Facebook and get a life !!


哇哈哈。。我會的,謝謝關心 :P

Thursday, March 19, 2009

佛家禪語

1、人之所以痛苦,在於追求錯誤的東西。
2、與其說是別人讓你痛苦,不如說自己的修養不夠
3、如果你不給自己煩惱,別人也永遠不可能給你煩惱。因為你自己的內心,你放不下。
4、好好的管教你自己,不要管別人。
5、不寬恕眾生,不原諒眾生,是苦了你自己。
6、別說別人可憐,自己更可憐,自己修行又如何?自己又懂得人生多少?
7、學佛是對自己的良心交待,不是做給別人看的。
8、福報不夠的人,就會常常聽到是非;福報夠的人,從來就沒聽到過是非。
9、修行是點滴的工夫。
10、在順境中修行,永遠不能成佛。
11、你永遠要感謝給你逆境的眾生。
12、你隨時要認命,因為你是人。
13、你永遠要寬恕眾生,不論他有多壞,甚至他傷害過你,你一定要放下,才能得到真正的快樂。
14、這個世界本來就是痛苦的,沒有例外的。
15、當你快樂時,你要想,這快樂不是永恆的。當你痛苦時你要想這痛苦也不是永恆的。
16、認識自己,降伏自己,改變自己,才能改變別人。
17、今日的執著,會造成明日的後悔。
18、你可以擁有愛,但不要執著,因為分離是必然的。
19、不要浪費你的生命在你一定會後悔的地方上。
20、你什麼時候放下,什麼時候就沒有煩惱。
21、內心沒有分別心,就是真正的苦行。
22、學佛第一個觀念,永遠不去看眾生的過錯。你看眾生的過錯,你永遠污染你自己,你根本不可能修行。
23、你每天若看見眾生的過失和是非,你就要趕快去懺悔,這就是修行
24、業障深重的人,一天到晚都在看別人的過失與缺點,真正修行的人,從不會去看別人的過失與缺點。
25、每一種創傷,都是一種成熟。
26、當你知道迷惑時,並不可憐, 當你不知道迷惑時,才是最可憐的。
27、狂妄的人有救,自卑的人沒有救。
28、你不要一直不滿人家,你應該一直檢討自己才對。不滿人家,是苦了你自己。
29、一切惡法,本是虛妄的,你不要太自卑你自己。一切善法,也是虛妄的,你也不要太狂妄你自己。
30、當你煩惱的時候,你就要告訴你自己,這一切都是假的,你煩惱什麼?
31、當你未學佛的時候,你看什麼都不順。當你學佛以後,你要看什麼都很順。
32、你要包容那些意見跟你不同的人,這樣子日子比較好過。你要是一直想改變他,那樣子你會很痛苦。要學學怎樣忍受他才是。你要學學怎樣包容他才是。
33、承認自己的偉大,就是認同自己的愚疑。
34、修行就是修正自己錯誤的觀念。
35、醫生難醫命終之人,佛陀難渡無緣的眾生。
36、一個人如果不能從內心去原諒別人,那他就永遠不會心安理得。
37、心中裝滿著自己的看法與想法的人,永遠聽不見別人的心聲。
38、毀滅人只要一句話,培植一個人卻要千句話,請你多口下留情。
39、當你勸告別人時,若不顧及別人的自尊心,那麼再好的言語都沒有用的。
40、不要在你的智慧中夾雜著傲慢。不要使你的謙虛心缺乏智慧。
41、根本不必回頭去看咒罵你的人是誰?如? G有一條瘋狗咬你一口,難道你也要趴下去反咬他一口嗎?
42、忌妒別人,不會給自己增加任何的好處。忌妒別人,也不可能減少別人的成就。
43、永遠不要浪費你的一分一秒,去想任何你不喜歡的人。
44、多少人要離開這個世間時,都會說出同一句話,這世界真是無奈與淒涼啊!
45、戀愛不是慈善事業,不能隨便施捨的。感情是沒有公式,沒有原則,沒有道理可循的。可是人們至死都還在執著與追求。
46、請你用慈悲心和溫和的態度,把你的不滿與委屈說出來,別人就容易接受。
47、創造機會的人是勇者。等待機會的人是愚者。
48、能說不能行,不是真智慧。
49、多用心去傾聽別人怎麼說,不要急著表達你自己的看法。
50、同樣的瓶子,你為什麼要裝毒藥呢?同樣的心理,你為什麼要充滿著煩惱呢?
51、得不到的東西,我們會一直以為他是美好的,那是因為你對他瞭解太少,沒有時間與他相處在一起。當有一天,你深入瞭解後,你會發現原不是你想像中的那麼美好。
52、這個世間只有圓滑,沒有圓滿的。
53、修行要有耐性,要能甘於淡泊,樂於寂寞。
54、活著一天,就是有福氣,就該珍惜。當我哭泣我沒有鞋子穿的時候,我發現有人卻沒有腳。<>55、多一分心力去注意別人,就少一分心力反省自己,你懂嗎?
56、眼睛不要老是睜得那麼大,我且問你,百年以後,那一樣是你的。
57、欲知世上刀兵劫,但聽屠門夜半聲。不要光埋怨自己多病,災禍橫生,多看看橫死在你刀下的眾生又有多少?
58、憎恨別人對自己是一種很大的損失。
59、每一個人都擁有生命,但並非每個人都懂得生命,乃至於珍惜生命。不瞭解生命的人,生命對他來說,是一種懲罰。
60、自以為擁有財富的人,其實是被財富所擁有。
61、情執是苦惱的原因,放下情執,你才能得到自在。
62、隨緣不是得過且過,因循苟且,而是盡人事聽天命。
63、不要太肯定自己的看法,這樣子比較少後悔。
64、當你對自己誠實的時候,世界上沒有人能夠欺騙得了你。
65、用傷害別人的手段來掩飾自己缺點的人,是可恥的。
66、世間的人要對法律負責任。修行的人要對因果負責任。
67、在你貧窮的時候,那你就用身體去佈施,譬如說掃地、灑水、搬東西等,這也是一種佈施。
68、內心充滿忌妒,心中不坦白,言語不正的人,不能算是一位五官端正的人。
69、默默的關懷與祝福別人,那是一種無形的佈施。
70、多講點笑話,以幽默? 犖A度處事,這樣子日子會好過一點。
71、與人相處之道,在於無限的容忍。
72、不要刻意去猜測他人的想法,如果你沒有智慧與經驗的正確判斷,通常都會有錯誤的。
73、要瞭解一個人,只需要看他的出發點與目的地是否相同,就可以知道他是否真心的。
74、人生的真理,只是藏在平淡無味之中。
75、不洗澡的人,硬擦香水是不會香的。名聲與尊貴,是來自於真才實學的。有德自然香。
76、與其你去排斥它已成的事實,你不如去接受它,這個叫做認命。
77、佛菩薩只保佑那些肯幫助自己的人。
78、逆境是成長必經的過程,能勇於接受逆境的人,生命就會日漸的茁壯。
79、你要感謝告訴你缺點的人。
80、能為別人設想的人,永遠不寂寞。
81、如果你能像看別人缺點一樣,如此準確般的發現自己的缺點,那麼你的生命將會不平凡。
82、原諒別人,就是給自己心中留下空間,以便迴旋。
83、時間總會過去的,讓時間流走你的煩惱吧!
84、你硬要把單純的事情看得很嚴重,那樣子你會很痛苦。
85、永遠扭曲別人善意的人,無藥可救。
86、人不是壞的,只是習氣罷了,每個人都有習氣,只是深淺不同罷了。只要他有向道的心,能原諒的就原諒他,不要把他看做是壞人。
87、說一句謊話,要編造十句謊話來彌補,何苦呢?
88、其實愛美的人,只是與自己談戀愛罷了。
89、世界上沒有一個永遠不被譭謗的人,也沒有一個永遠被讚歎的人。當你話多的時候,別人要批評你,當你話少的時候,別人要批評你,當你沈默的時候,別人還是要批評你。在這個世界上,沒有一個不被批評的。
90、誇獎我們,讚歎我們的,這都不是名師。會講我們,指示我們的,這才是善知識,有了他們我們才會進步。
91、你目前所擁有的都將隨著你的死亡而成為他人的,那為何不現在就佈施給真正需要的人呢?
92、為了讚美而去修行,有如被踐? 顒滬貌嶈?BR>93、白白的過一天,無所事事,就像犯了竊盜罪一樣。
94、能夠把自己壓得低低的,那才是真正的尊貴。
95、廣結眾緣,就是不要去傷害任何一個人。
96、沈默是譭謗最好的答覆。
97、對人恭敬,就是在莊嚴你自己。
98、擁有一顆無私的愛心,便擁有了一切。
99、仇恨永遠不能化解仇恨,只有慈悲才能化解仇恨,這是永恆的至理。
100、你認命比抱怨還要好,對於不可改變的事實,你除了認命以外,沒有更好的辦法了。
願以此功德,莊嚴佛淨土,
上報四重恩,下濟三塗苦,
若有見聞者,悉發菩提心,
盡此一報身,同生極樂國。



Thursday, March 12, 2009

Post by Chris in Facebook

And then there's those that I see everywhere! That I just can't put into one category because they're like me...they play just about every app on here (that's worth playing, anyway). People I see all the time like:

Andrew and Mary Cotton

Nicola Woodward Davis

Phoenix Lim <=====

Hazel Mary Barrett

Nicholas Coyle

Kelly Fortier

Tracy Carriere

Scott A. Britton

Michelle D. Rodgers

Dawn Bissonette

Michelle De-Pass

Michelle Reed

ROFL... I am indeed flattered to be included in this note (",)