Thursday, September 17, 2009

A kind soul but....

UPDATE: 17 September 2009
I am feeling very upset at the moment and am trying hard not to give up completely! People have been so wonderful here on Fluff that it brings me much joy and escape from my 'real' life. I wnat to keep you updated as things kick into high gear. My oncologist has given me only a matter of weeks to live, and I am having a hard time accepting this as I feel good physically. I thought that I would have to feel weak and be in pain. I have aches and the occasional headache but nothing that would suggest this. The doctor tell me that it will progress rather quickly and my health will deteriorate rapidly, but really how can he be sure. The range of emotions that I have been going through are more tiring than the disease at the moment. How can anyone really be prepared for their own mortality, I think I would have preferred for it to be not known, but in saying that I have the chance to say my goodbyes and do things I want to do. I have had a good life, I have seen the world and experienced life. I have wonderful friends and loving parents, and it is them that i worry about now, well in between my lapses into self pity. I dont know how this will go but I will try to update daily (if I can find time in between petting and gifting!)

UPDATE: 14 September 2009
My doctors have discovered that my cancer has spread to both my brain and bones. I am still going to undertake chemotherapy in the hope of extending my time. The doctors have given me a time frame to look at, but i have seen many people defy the odds and live well beyond this limit. I have had some very dark days, these last few, and I am sure that I will have more to come. However I will try to remain strong and I will remember that tears can help us at times. I would ask that anyone who reads this please keep me in your prayers.
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Thankyou everyone for all your kind word and thoughts (and prayers). I would like to share with you all a bit about me and my cancer battle. I was first diagnosed in 1998 with breast cancer. I had surgery to remove the lump and then underwent radiation therapy. I made a good recovery adn was cancer free up until early this year when my mamogram found a mass, on closer examination the oncologist discovered that the original had indeed returned and mestatisized. I have since had a double mastectomy and lymph node removal. And now I ma undertaking chemotherapy to extend my time. The doctors are not optimistic but I AM! I know I can beat this and if I cant Iknow that my family and friends whom I have already lost will be waiting for me wherever it is I am to go.
During my first treatment 10 years ago I met some wonderful women with extraordinary stories of courage, and they give me strength. Lila, our angel, was still only a child, 19, in 1999 when she lost her battle, but she held herself with such grace and was more interested in making sure everyone around her was okay. Samantha was my other bus buddy (we caught the cancer bus to treatment together) she was a single mother of 3 beautiful daughters all under the age of 5 and she was only 25. SHe managed her treatment and her family with very little support and remained optimistic during the whole ordeal. Samantha has remained cancer free and went on to have another child a son and is now happily married. She is here on facebook and my greatest support! My other friend Aileen passed away recently, she was Lila's mum, and she became somewhat like my mum to during my treatment. She saw us all through our cancer only to be struck down herself last year, she fought to the end adn most importantly she never stopped living, her last holiday she went away to Egypt determined to keep a promise to her daughter. These 3 women are my role models for strngth and courage and they are the reason why I will never give up fighting and being optimistic.
I will beat it!

I hope she will continue to be optimistic and get well soon.... Let's pray for her... God bless ...

It all started with this......

Shelley LeBreton (Saint John, NB) wroteon September 13, 2009 at 2:15am
I am offering 500 LG to someone to help them with their fund or debt, if you or someone you know is saving for a special item please post here and tell me about it... I will have someone help me pick someone to give the 500 LG to..

THANK YOU, I look forward to reading your stories.... I have to work tonight, but will check this topic when I get home.

Please don't forget to leave me a link to get to you if you are chosen

Then i asked Stephanie to help to nominate me, lolz .... this is what she wrote :

Stephanie Lum wroteon September 13, 2009 at 9:47pm
I would like to nominate Phoenix Lim. She has been saving hard for the Phoenix fund right before the mm phoenix went into LE Shop. I still remembered she got so excited when i texted her during work time that there's going to be a MM Phoenix. LOL

She can't get online during work time. So one day before the MM went into LE shop, she send me LG for my safe keeping. In the next morning, she texted me to check whether anyone is selling the MM. But then LE prices are crazy.

She wanted the MM Phoenix so badly . Just to let you know one of her chinese name means Phoenix in English and she also give herself a English name as Phoenix too. I never have seen someone as crazy as her . Hehe !

So she has been saving ever since to bring back the MM Phoenix. I am not sure how much she has save now. Perhaps u want to talk to her. Her link is http://flyingdance.fluff-friends.com

And after that Melissa Laura Iwankewycz agreed to do a food debt for the MM Phoenix for me, hurray !!!

and started a new thread the DB

MM Phoenix debt between Melissa Laura Iwankewycz and me


Thank you very much to Melissa for willing to do food debt with me for MM Phoenix.

MM Phoenix : 1248 LG

Food rate : 55/lg or 50lg for grapes.

1248 LG - 879 LG = 369 LG ( debt ) or 20295 food

Phoenix's link : http://flyingdance.fluff-friends.com

~~~~ Any donation is very much appreciated, thanks in advance ~~~
Post #2
Melissa Laura Iwankewycz (University of Guelph) wroteon September 14, 2009 at 10:36pm
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim and you've fulfilled their wish!
MegaMini Phoenix
Quantity: 1
Post #3
You wroteon September 15, 2009 at 7:58pm
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 5

369 LG - 5 LG = 364 LG ( debt as at 15/9/09 )
Post #4
You wrote23 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 05

364 LG - 5 LG = 359 LG ( debt as at 16/9/09 )
Post #5
Shemi Jicha (Greenville, SC) wrote20 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim and you've fulfilled their wish!
Gold Currency
Amount: 350
Post #6
Susan Virtanen (Finland) wrote19 hours ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Phoenix Lim!

Gold Currency
Amount: 9

No more debt! Yippee!
Post #7
You wrote37 minutes ago
Success: You have given a Gift to Melissa Laura Iwankewycz!

Gold Currency
Amount: 359

359 LG - 359 LG = 0 ( debt settled as at 17/9/09 )

I would like to take this chance to thank Shemi Jicha and Susan Virtanen for helping me settle my MM Phoenix debt.
It was a huge surprise when i logged in to fluff when i came back from work ..... really appreciate their help * sob * *hugs*
Post #8
Susan Virtanen (Finland) wrote31 minutes ago
You are welcome Phoenix! I am glad I was able to make a small contribution :-)
Post #9
You wrote26 minutes ago
Your contribution means a lot to me ^6^

Thanks again
Post #10
Melissa Laura Iwankewycz (University of Guelph) wrote24 minutes ago
Congrats Pheonix!!!!!!!!!!

:)
Post #11
You wrote8 minutes ago
Thanks again , Melissa ... the biggest credit goes to u ^6^